It’s not easy to explain but there is a way in which her night time dreams have changed over the last few months.
It isn't that she is dreaming less. It isn't that her dreams have become less complex or less challenging.
Rather, she (or the character she is "playing" in a particular dream) has become more grounded and is better able to hold herself together in situations which would normally confuse, threaten or overwhelm her. Mostly, this change finds her no longer being haunted by the feeling that, no matter what is happening on the surface, she is deep-down somehow in the wrong.
A lot has transpired since she began giving her feelings and thoughts a public voice. Being in a position whereby she has to carefully weigh and - at least in her own mind - stand behind each and every word she voices, or publishes, has (by-the-by) created the welcome circumstance where she is now "owning herself" more.
She has long understood that if she can emotionally withstand a particular pressure in a dream (where she has only her subconscious mind to respond, as best it can, to the stimulus of the story it is telling itself) then she can emotionally withstand that same pressure while awake.
Finding she can now better withstand and, also, better navigate the stories in her dreams without abandoning herself leads her to marvel - once again - at the way in which our waking and sleeping experiences cross-pollinate each other.
"A mind is an awesome process," she concludes.
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